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I find that your breath irrates me now.
that the simple words that you say make me revolt in agony for even considering that we might be even friends.
be gone and don't dare turn back there are to many tears shed on my blanket and pillow spread.
you might have thought of me as some one weak or useless but dare i say it your the weak one.
you can barely say i love you, let alone i like you.
how is it that you have that wicked smile imprinted on your face, those savage eyes invoke no trace.
your like a monster with a sweet poison, that lures me in.
no more I have tasted the bitter sweet moment that i have always waited for you no longer.
I am strong.
my eyes are hazed while you say things much to fast for me to catch.
damn you i love you my angel and my sin damn how much i love you, but no more, can i say those words with out crying.
i have promised no more tears from now on.
i am strong.
and you must be gone.
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(in revolt)
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I have passed.
I have withered.
I am no longer whole.
No longer am I alive.
I'm no longer waiting, no longer wanting. just barely passing.
barely breathing, barely awke.
My eyes have lack of purpose lack of hope.
Nearly gone I whisper your name.
I hope for an answer.
None come, no one calls, I have gone.
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(in wake)
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you beat at the cobble stone that rests above my head as you tower over what life lives past my death.
you barely speak only listen.
hoping that somehow, I'll answer what ever question it is that you wanted answered when I was alive.
and the answer is yes. YES. I loved you more in life than I have ever loved anyone and that is why I left you why I forgot you, because better to have loved a portion of you and lost what i had no knowledge of, than to have loved all of you and still loss you. my heart is broken my tears are dry. I have passed and you still cry.